112104

2006-04-12T14:30:00.000+08:00

You are a person who approaches their finances aggressively and with purpose. You make sure you have covered every angle by consulting the best professionals, then move in for the attack.

Elegance is essential. It doesn't matter if you are going to the opera or the to the corner shop, you make sure that you look fantastic.

You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life. You are more comfortable talking about work than relationships.

In your mind, the image your friends have of you is very important. You like to have the latest brands and are prepared to invest a lot of your money in quality and expensive possessions.

In your mind, the image your friends have of you is very important. You like to have the latest brands and are prepared to invest a lot of your money in quality and expensive possessions.

You are a no-nonsense, practical person. You make sure that you are there when your friends need you, and like to solve their problems for them.

career test

2006-04-10T09:02:00.000+08:00

Results

This questionnaire is designed to get you thinking about the sort of jobs that might suit your style.

John Holland's model of vocational choice suggests that people with particular interests and styles tend to favour certain types of jobs. Holland described six main types of person:

Realistic
Conventional
Social
Enterprising
Artistic
Investigative

Knowing the types you most (and least) fit can help you think about the types of role that may suit you.

Read below to find out what careers you seem to be suited to based on your results in the test:

Investigative

Your results suggest that Investigative type work might suit your interests and preferences.

Investigative types prefer thinking to action, they like working with information and may prefer working with ideas rather than with people. They tend to like jobs in which they can research, analyse and solve problems (or come up with new problems!) and prefer using their brains to their interpersonal skills. Typical roles that suit Investigative types are scientist, engineer, laboratory worker, computer programmer, pharmacist and vet.

Enterprising

Your results suggest that Enterprising type work is less likely to suit your interests.

Enterprising types like persuading and influencing people as well as controlling, managing and selling to them. They like to take a lead and are often quite motivated and ambitious but may be impatient and can find rules and detail frustrating. They tend to favour roles such as salesperson, manager, estate agent, supervisor, lawyer, advertising or marketing executive and often like positions that have status and prestige.

Social

Your results suggest that Social type work is less likely to suit your interests.

Social types like roles that focus on helping, teaching or supporting others and very much prefer working with people to working with things or ideas. They tend to prefer working in teams and like to feel they are doing something useful. Typical roles for social types include teacher, counsellor, nurse, minister of religion, clinical psychologist or police officer.

Conventional

Your results suggest that Conventional type work is less likely to suit your interests.

Conventional types are happy to work within systems and large organisations and tend to focus on accuracy and efficiency, preferring to know what is expected of them. They tend to like things to be organised and predictable and are often involved in roles that involve recording, sorting, documenting and organising. Typical roles for Conventional types include the range of administrative and clerical roles (e.g. in the government and financial sectors) as well as accountancy, banking, bookkeeping, secretarial work and some inspecting roles.

Realistic

Your results suggest that Realistic type work is less likely to suit your interests.

Realistic types generally prefer action to words, they like physical activity and may prefer working with things to working with people. They tend to favour jobs where they can work with their hands or produce things, and often like outdoor work. Typical roles that suit Realistic types are gardener, mechanic, driver, electrician, farmer, sportsperson, skilled trades, labourers and some engineering and military roles.

This brief questionnaire can't tell you exactly what you should do. It only suggests work areas to think about that may match the way you like to work but it can't tell you whether you have the skills and qualifications for these jobs.

tests again

2006-04-10T08:42:00.001+08:00

Your answers suggest you are a Realist

The four aspects that make up this personality type are:

Summary of Realists

Loyal and steady workers who meet deadlines
Believe in established rules and respect facts
Think of themselves as mature, stable and conscientious
May appear too logical or tough-minded and forget their impact on other people

More about Realists

Realists are loyal to the people around them and work hard to keep their promises. They are honest and straightforward with others and expect the same in return. Realists believe in standard procedures and will only support change when there is a demonstrable benefit.

Realists are the most common personality type in the UK, according to a nationwide survey.

Realists respect factual information, which they store up to use when making decisions. This group likes to have time to think quietly and carefully before taking action.

These extremely productive people like to be occupied in their leisure time with pursuits such as craftwork, hiking or reading.

In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Realists may become obsessed with schedules, critical of others or have trouble trusting other people to get the job done properly. Under extreme stress, Realists may complain loudly that events have taken a turn for the worse and predict negative outcomes.

Realists typically only share their opinions or personal experiences with trusted friends.

Realist Careers

Realists are attracted to jobs where decision making based on factual knowledge and experience is required.

It's important to remember that no survey can predict personality type with 100 percent accuracy. Experts say that we should use personality type to better understand ourselves and others, but shouldn't feel restricted by our results.

Overall results

The graph below shows the percentage of people with each personality type out of everyone who has taken this test.


Big Thinkers
Counsellors
Go-getters
Idealists
Innovators
Leaders
Masterminds
Mentors
Nurturers
Peacemakers
Performers
Providers
Realists
Resolvers
Strategists
Supervisors

Read about the 16 personality types from the What Am I like? Personality test:

Big Thinker,Counsellor, Go-getter, Idealist, Innovator, Leader, Mastermind, Mentor, Nurturer, Peacemaker, Performer, Provider, Realist, Resolver, Strategist and Supervisor.

ANALYTICAL TRUST WORTHY SELF-ASSURED

You appreciate high quality and things that endure. Consequently, you like to surround yourself with little "gems," which are often overlooked by others.

Culture and tradition are important to you.

You have found your own personal style, which is elegant and exclusive, free from the whims of fashion.

Your ideal, upon which you base your life, is sophisticated pleasure.

color test

2006-04-10T08:42:00.000+08:00

Your Existing Situation

Unable to exert the efforts to achieve his objectives. Feels neglected, desiring greater security, warm affection, and fewer problems.

Your Stress Sources

Suppresses his innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that he might be carried away by it only to find himself pursuing some will-o'-the-wisp. Feels he has been misled and abused and has withdrawn to hold himself cautiously aloof from others. Keeps a careful and critical watch to see whether motives towards him are sincere--a watchfulness which easily develops into suspicion and distrust.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels that he is burdened with more than his fair share of problems. However, he sticks to his goals and tries to overcome his difficulties by being flexible and accommodating.

Unhappy at the resistance he feels whenever he tries to assert himself. However, he believes that there is little he can do and that he must make the best of the situation.

Your Desired Objective

Urgently in need of rest, relaxation, peace, and affectionate understanding. Feels he has been treated with a lack of consideration and is upset and agitated as a result. Regards his situation as intolerable as long as his requirements are not complied with.

Your Actual Problem

Needs to protect himself against his tendency to be too trusting, as he finds it is liable to be misunderstood or exploited by others. Is therefore seeking a relationship providing peaceful and understanding intimacy, and in which each knows exactly where the other stands.

Your Actual Problem #2

Disappointment at the non-fulfillment of his hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety. He is trying to escape from this into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, protecting him from dissatisfaction and lack of appreciation.

handwriting analysis

2006-04-10T08:32:00.000+08:00

The results of your analysis say:

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are affectionate, passionate, expressive, and future-oriented.
You are a talkative person, maybe even a busybody!
You enjoy life in your own way and do not depend on the opinions of others.

family picture

2005-10-09T15:55:00.000+08:00

The Sebastian Family
September 17, 2005
Mandarin Oriental Manila

2005-09-08T20:09:00.000+08:00

teaser.... spruks album....
timmy :)

something soooo bad, nakaka guilty....

2005-09-06T08:36:00.000+08:00

My mom only had
one eye.
i hated her... she was such an
embarrassment..
my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.
she collected little weeds and such to
sell...
anything for the money we needed
she was such an embarrassment.
there was this one day during elementary
school..
it was field day, and my mom came.
i was so embarrassed. how could she do
this to
me? i threw her a hateful look and ran out.

the next day at school...
"your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and
they
taunted me.
i wished that my mom would just
disappear from
this world
so i said to my mom,
"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!
if you're only gonna make me a
laughingstock,
why dont you just die?!!!"
my mom did not respond..
i guess i felt a little bad, but at the same
time, it
felt good to think that i had said what i'd
wanted to
say all this time..
maybe it was because my mom hadnt
punished
me,
but i didnt think that i had hurt her
feelings very
badly.

that night...
i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get
a glass
of water.
my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if
she
was afraid that she might wake me.
i took a look at her, then turned away.
because of the thing i had said to her
earlier, there
was something pinching at me in the
corner of my
heart.
even so, i hated my mother who was
crying out of
her one eye. so i told myself that i would
grow up
and become successful.
cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our
desperate poverty..

then i studied real hard.
i left my mother and came to Seoul and
studied,
and got accepted in the Seoul University
with all
the confidence i had.

then, i got married.
i bought a house of my own.
then i had kids, too..
now i'm living happily as a successful
man.
i like it here because it's a place that
doesnt
remind me of my mom.

this happiness was getting bigger and
bigger,
when..

what?!
who's this?!
...it was my mother...
..still with her one eye.
it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart
on me.
my little girl ran away, scared of my
mom's eye.
and i asked her,

"who are you?!"
"i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make
that real. i
screamed at her," how dare you come to
my
house and scare my daughter!"

"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

and to this, my mother quietly answered,
"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the
wrong
address,"
and she disappeared out of sight.

thank good ness... she doesnt recognize
me..
i was quite relieved.

i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or
think
about this for the rest of my life.
then a wave of relief came upon me...

one day, a letter regarding a school
reunion came
to my house. so, lying to my wife that i
was going
on a business trip, i went.
after the reunion, i went down to the old
shack,
that i used to call a house...just out of
curiosity

there, i found my mother fallen on the
cold ground.
but i did not shed a single tear.
she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it
was a
letter to me.

my son...
i think my life has been long enough now..

and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...
but would it be too much to ask if i
wanted you to
come visit me once in a while?
i miss you so much.. and i was so glad
when i
heard you were coming for the reunion.
but i decided not to go to the school.
...for you...
and i'm sorry that i only have one eye,
and i was
an embarrassment for you.

you see, when you were very little, you
got into
an
accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i
couldnt
stand watching you having to grow up
with only
one eye... so i gave you mine...
i was so proud of my son that was seeing a
whole
new world for me, in my place, with that
eye. i
was
never upset at you for anything you did..
the
couple times that you were angry with
me,.. i
thought to myself, 'it's because he loves
me..'

my son... oh, my son...

2005-08-24T22:07:00.000+08:00

poor jimny
timmy :)

accenture test

2005-08-23T13:24:00.000+08:00

so bale kahapon eh nag test nga ako sa accenture, grabe ang aga kong gumising! mga 430 ata eh nanggigising na ung aming alarm cat, si sushi (eto ung lalaking pusa namin na mataba). so un, eh since maaga rin naman ako natulog, earlier than the usual, nagising naman ako. sobrang aga rin kasi ng ate ko at ung younger sis ko kaya un, maaga lahat ng tao umalis sa bahay. eh ang sched ko ay 8 pa, sa sobrang aga eh 720 ata eh andun na ako sa libran building. medyo naninibago ung katawan kong gumising ng maaga,plus nawiwiwi ako sa lamig nung kotse so nag starbucks muna ako, hehe ang yabang pa nga ng dating ko ata sa ibang taong kasabay kong nag test eh, kasi parang feeling ko, feeling nila ang yabang ko, pa starbux starbux lang, easy easy, ganun hehe parang kampante masyado sa test. so there, we waited until the guard let us in the building.

as soon as we entered the lobby, the receptionist told us to check if we were on the list and then, answer the application form, etc. if i remembered correctly, i was the only atenean in our batch,and it seemed like most of the other people there had computer background( for example, the person who sat beside me was a graduate of computer engineering from AMA College) and so there, we filled up the forms etc, and then we were called to go in the testing room already.

i was so impressed initially, with their test because it was all computerized, self-paced test pero in a way you had to hurry up in answering the tests because there were so many parts and the pressure to perform was also there ( shempre i had to prove myself worthy to be there in the midst of all these computer techy people). the proctor explained every thing,every detail about the job we were being offered, etc. she said that the tests were for both the techie side and the business process outsourcing. i was listening to her explanations which jojo already mentioned to us spruks before, so there. i was really more interested in the business process outsourcing because that was the one with the HR related job hehe.

after all the explanations, we started the tests. at first i was in way pressured to finish ahead of time because angelo and patching said that i have to finish fast on the first part, and then i can take time on the latter part. i was doing fine during the tests, i even noticed that i was doing much faster that the other people around me. in a way,that was nice, because i could still go over my answers to make sure they are correct, that all numbers were answered, etc. everything wasfine until i felt the urge to pee. i guess the warmness of the hotchoco from starbucks is taking its effect on my body, sending signals that i have to let go of some waste or else i might look like im having a hard time with the tests. to top it all, i felt my tummy grumbling as if i needed to poop, given that i already did that morning before we left. UH-OH! i need to do something about it. at first i tried to focus on the test that i was answering at that time. i wanted to make sure that i do answer it properly, etc. and then after that part, i would ask to go to the rest room. fortunately, the proctor allowed me to, but the problem was, she never mentioned that the CR was on the OTHER building, on the SECOND floor! i had to do it or else i wouldnt be able to finish the tests with the best possible answers that i could think of. after going all the hassles of going to the next building, taking the stairs to the second floor, i was finally able to unload. when i came back, i only had 2 minutes to finish that part. in my mind i said, that it was better for me to sacrifice one part than to sabotage the whole test because i wasnt nor able to concentrate. after peeing, i was now relaxed and was more focused on answering the tests, and made sure that i the "sacrifice" i took was worth it.

after finishing the tests, i submitted my requirements and left.

ESTJ

2005-08-18T14:39:00.000+08:00

ESTJ

You like to roll up your sleeves, dig in and go right at getting the job done. you use logic and analysis as guiding principles in your life. You're quick to decide and set out a plan of action. You make sure commitments (your own and those of others) are honored and the job gets done.

You value team sports, and other group activities. If something is the tradition of your job or school, you'll take part in it. You know that you have to "earn your keep" and take responsibility for yourself...you take your roles seriously (father, employee, student, or whatever).

You learn best in structured settings...you're a take charge kinda person.. you can deliver when there's a specific task with deadlines...you have an orderly and logical way of evaluating things..

You like a task-oriented and structured atmosphere...you get a thrill outta accomplishments and just having finished something...efficiency is important to you....with you, "what you see is what you get."

You are the prototypical leader. You give advice freely, you take charge, you wanna fix the problems...you are quick, direct, and crisp at getting to the core of the situation...others might look at you as tough, driven, or heartless, though..

You put work before pleasure, and know when to do which...fun time is often seen as a reward for accomplishing a task... you don't just go for walks.. the walk hasta have a purpose...

Love means stability and steadfastedness...however, when you fall in love, this is pretty much the only time you'll be flexible and spontaneous... you expect security and loyalty in relationships...you logically expect that a relationship will have its ups and downs, so let the other person weather the tough times, when you should be helping perhaps...you don't like to let others see your hurt feelings....you're supersensitive to being rejected and may not always share that hurt...

Things to watch for: you might decide too quickly and to form opinions how things "ought to get done." But what happens when circumstances change? Also, don't walk on others feelings...it's part of working with others and you don't particularly consider this part often...when you get emotional and you've been holding stuff inside, a seemingly minor incident will set off an explosion...don't forget to consider others' values and opinions.

ESTJ: "Execution Saves The Job"

2005-08-08T21:58:00.000+08:00

the best birthday gift...
timmy :)

2005-07-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

things i do while jobless...
timmy :)

2005-07-19T13:49:00.000+08:00

gawa ni cyl... especially for me :D
timmy :)

psycho test results

2005-07-17T10:19:00.000+08:00

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Moderate
Schizoid:	Low
Schizotypal:	Low
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Moderate
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	Low
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

2005-07-09T21:21:00.000+08:00

timmy :)

time to break the silence

2005-06-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

unlike the president who, until now keeps her mouth shut on the issues
at hand, i would like to start my expose on what happened with my
interview last wednesday. as i have mentioned before, they told me to
wait for a call from them(HSBC) until friday if i get in or not. since
i knew that it was for the customer service, i had an idea that i
would not be in for that kind of job. i expected that. unfortunately,
they thought otherwise. up until friday, i was waiting for them return
call, but they didn't. i called them up around 530pm, trying to
clarify what happened with my application. i knew that i didnt get in
the interview for the call center position, BUT, i didnt think that it
would include any other possible job opportunity with HSBC. after
confirming that i didnt "pass" the interview, i texted my uncle and
told him about my current dilemma. he told me to clarify things up
with the HR persoon there, and ask whether that "rejection" was for
the call center position only OR even with other possible job
opportunities. i called them again and clarified whether that
rejection was for the call center or for any possible job opportunity
there. the answer i got was a solid rejection "i regret to inform you
that you did not qualify for the customer service position." i asked
again, "so would that mean i didnt pass for the customer service
position? should i be waiting for any other call from you or from any
other department, or does this mean i dont have any other chance of
working for HSBC?" "yes," she replied.

booom. the end....

then i told my tito about it, he himself was shocked with what i told
him. he told me that it was impossible that i would not be able to get
any possible job in HSBC since i passed their exam. he told me that i
would be "given" other job opportunities within the company since i
passed their test. unforntunately this was a complete opposite from
what they told me.

until now, im still trying to recover from that deadly blow to my ego,
it was so difficult on my part to accept such an embarrassing and
heartbreaking event in my post college life. its hard to look for a
job in HR nowadays,since most companies are looking for fresh grads
to work for their call centers. i dont want to jump on every job
opportunity that comes my way knowing that i dont want to do that
work, i dont want to work in a call center, being a call center
personnel. i dont want to stress myself because i dont like what im
doing plus the additional stress it would give me given the fact that
i dont like the job.

it just so frustrating to see people who are not employed despite the
good education they received. it just so heartbreaking to see great
brains go to waste while waiting and waiting for the "right time" for
the "right job"

wishing and hoping for the right job,

Fermin Antonio Miguel C. Sebastian III
Unemployed since after graduation

(0927)9280281
(0922)4283268

2005-06-17T10:22:00.000+08:00

badz: philosopher ; pammie: seductress ; jojo: commedian ; reena: corny ; missy: amazona ; timmy: sports buff ; cels: manang ; katyu: nanay
timmy :)

2005-05-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

ngayon ko lang napansin na wala pala akong blog entry about the palawan trip we had nung early march. sorry now lang hehe. sobrang fun ng trip na yun with my dad and titos and cousin. sa pic, kuya telo, me, dad, tito toots, kuya fr., and tito ray. sobrang fun nung trip kasi first time ko mag plane pauwi haha. ang saya nung trip kahit sobrang tagtag nung land trips, pero sulit naman sa pagkain, lalo na sa ka lui's, the best na nakainan ko sa palawan. (kasi 3 days lang ako dahil sa palawan, unlike sila na nagpunta pa sa dos palmas nung day na umalis ako) thanks for the fun memories and the laughter and bondings we had. sana maulit muli
timmy :)

2005-05-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

after 10 long months of undergoing therapy, i am now discharged. after ten months, i am now "back to normal". it would be very different now, since i have no idea of what to do now with my spare time which i used to spend with my therapy. medyo ang weird kasi parang ang unang pumasok sa isipan ko after ko malaman na pumasa ako sa mga hop tests ko ay "ano na gagawin ko sa free time ko?" medyo ang ironic nga kasi parang ung time para ma discharge ako ung pinaka aantay ko, tapos nung dumating na eh parang nagdadalawang isip ako kung un nga ba talaga ang gusto ko.sa loob ng sampung buwan, ang dami kong realizations sa buhay na nagsimula dahil sa operation/injury ko. natutunan ko kung gaano kahirap iwanan ng mga "kaibigan" sa gitna ng kahirapan, kung gaaano kahirap maglakad sa ateneo na nakasaklay, kung gaano kahirap mag heel slides after three weeks of not bending, at marami pang simpleng bagay na hindi ko inasahang malalaman kung ndi ako na injure. malaking tulong para sa aking recovery ung mga taong galing sa moro. totoo, therapist sila, ndi lang physical injuries ung kanilang ginagawang paraan upang gumaling, pero pati yung mga emotional hurts and possible issues that the patients have at that time eh kaya nilang ayusin. sobrang hirap siguradong mag recover sa ganitong injuries kung wala sila, kung walang mga taong nag eencourage sayo gumaling at pagbutihan mo upang mabilisan ang iyong paggaling.ang hirap kasi magsariling kayod sa ganitong situation where you think you do not have control of your body due to the pressures that life gives you. parang yung time na naputuluan ka nang knee ligament, parang nawalan ka ng power over your own body. sobrang ang galing ng mga tao sa moro, and shempre family and REAL friends who were there for you when you needed encouragement and emotional (and financial from family) support. sobrang thankful ako sa mga taong naging totoo at nagbigay ng suporta sa bawat pagpapakasakit at pagpapakahirap ko. gusto kong magpasalamat sa mga taong nagbigay suporta at tiwala sa akin, mga taong nagbigay ng lakas-loob para ma overcome ung mga fears that one can associate with the fact that they, at one point of their lives, lost control over their bodily function. salamat sa staff ng moro lorenzo sports clinic, sa mga kapwa acl patients, mga iba pang injured people sa moro, sa sprukukus, peers core group, family and relatives, and kay jecyll who is always there for me kahit sobrang daming times na nag aargue over small stuff :D shempre salamat kay GOD for giving me strength to overcome my fears, and the strength to move on with my life. thanks!
timmy :)

2005-04-18T18:30:00.000+08:00

112104 missing you sooooo bad.........
timmy :)

2005-04-18T10:37:00.000+08:00

different angles, different smiles, different reactions same loving JECYLL :)
timmy :)

2005-04-04T13:36:00.000+08:00

team sprukuku gabaldon-- mga taong natira pagkatapos ng isang malupitang pagsusulit. tumagal ng tatlong oras na pag aantay bago nakaalis ng admi papuntang NLEx. pumasa sa survival test ni manong L3 driver.. nabuhay ng 2 araw na ndi nag #2, mas marunong magluto kumpara sa mga babaeng kasama sa gabaldon team ateneo, mga talentadong tao na nakasama ko sa gabaldon maghukay, mag halo ng semento, mag palitada ng pader, mag igib ng tubig galing sa batis, maghugas sa batis, at magkantahan habang tanghalian at sa likod ng pick-up papuntang bus terminal sa cabanatuan, nueva ecija. salamat spruks gabaldon team! we survived!
timmy :)

2005-03-20T09:08:00.000+08:00

graduation day with my jecyll...
timmy :)

2005-03-20T08:42:00.000+08:00

SPRUKUKU: mga katotong kasama sa bawat hirap at ginhawa, sa kalokohan, sa kantahan, sa utakan, sa silid- aralan, sa kainan, sa lokohan, sa modus-an, sa iyakan, sa awayan, sa paggagawa ng thesis, sa phase trainings, sa core meetings, sa plastikan na nauuwi sa kantahan at lokohan sa bel field, sa mga tuksuhan, kantahan at marami pang iba.
timmy :)

2005-03-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday we watched HITCH, then we headed home agad to pick up my ate from work since she was the designated hair-dresser of my youngest sibling for her prom. tas yun. we took this picture after eating bulalo for dinner, sobrang sarap, diba kita sa laki ng mga ngiti? hehe un lang
timmy :)

salamat sa inyo

2005-03-12T01:55:00.000+08:00

ngayon eh makakahinga na akong maluwalhati sapagkat sigurado na akong makakapag tapos ng kolehiyo, kursong batselyor sa sikolohiya. marahil noong una, ako'y medyo nag aalangan lalo na sa kursong pilosopiya sa ilalim ng kinatatakutang guro na si padre david,s.j. maraming nag sasabing iwasan siya maging guro. siya raw ay isang matinding guro na sukdulan ng daming ipinababasa. totoo, tama sila sa aspetong iyon. halos gabundok na ang aking mga babasahin sa kanyang klase. mahirap siyang sabayan sa kanyang mga sinasabi lalo na kapag hindi ka nakapag basa ng kanyang mga ipinapabasang artikulo. minsan, hindi ka na makakatulog ng matino dahil sa kakaisip na baka matawag ka niya sa recitation. ang hirap maging handa sa mga bagay na kung iyong iisipin ay hindi mo ninanais at ayaw mong naisin.

sa loob ng apat na taon sa kolehiyo, sa kanya lamang ako naghirap ng ganoon at kahit anong hirap at pagpapakasakit ang aking ginawa, wala pa rin akong naabutang matino. sakto lamang na pasado sa kanyang klase, muntikan pa nga akong hindi maka pasa dahil sa isang papel na aking hindi na ipasa ng tamang panahon. sana sa ganitong pagsusulit sa buhay ay maging handa ako sa tunay na mundo sa labas ng paaralang ateneo.....

2005-03-10T14:24:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken last feb.27 during our family lunch, pero that time, all our significant others were there. it was a fun lunch, given that we rarely go out with my other cousins due to so many external factors, pero i can say we all had fun. after having eaten lunch, my tito ray had a contest for all the couples. he asked them/us questions ala-"meet-my-folks", so bale what kinda happened was meet my clan hehe. ang fun lang kasi sa contest na un, we won, haha although they were saying that we won because we were just 3 months together as a couple so kinda fresh pa, pero i doubt it. sa araw araw ba naman na ginawa ni God eh wala atang time na hindi kami nag usap or kahit anong form ng communication eh :) ang astig lang....
timmy :)

2005-02-13T13:07:00.000+08:00

happy couple! :D we weren't suppose to be meeting last week, feb.6 because of some booboo i did, pero fortunately we did :D after watching the movie "Shall We Dance" together with my sister and her husband, my other younger sister and her boyfriend, my parents, and ME ( without her), i was a bit saddened and was thinking of her the whole time i was watching the film (because she's a great dancer hehe labo). so yun, siguro ayaw lang talaga kami paghiwalayin ng tadhana so we were able to be with each other again last week! yEHEY! tas un. we played billiards with her two brothers and also sang songs with her parents. this was a photoshoot break from all the singing we had that day
timmy :)

2005-02-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

wedding reception na to, pero we werent there with the people, nandun lang kaming family sa loob ng room where we dressed up and stuff. medyo okay na ako this time, kasi niloloko ako ni cyl na iyakin coz i saw my younger sister sa church na naglakad towards the altar, i was thinking na parang its final na, at first parang pang debut lang ung preparations pero iba ung effect afterwards. everything went well naman, so far okay pa lahat
timmy :)

2005-02-13T12:52:00.000+08:00

some pics from the wedding, after na nung ceremonies proper :D
timmy :)

2005-02-13T12:49:00.000+08:00

wedding ng sister ko... grabe ang weird ng feeling to see your younger sister walking down the aisle in a flowing white dress....
timmy :)

2005-01-23T10:30:00.001+08:00

a month after
timmy :)

2005-01-23T10:30:00.000+08:00

ganda ng girlfriend ko talaga :D
timmy :)

2005-01-23T10:29:00.000+08:00

new life
timmy :)

2005-01-23T10:28:00.000+08:00

new years eve
timmy :)

after two months

2005-01-23T10:14:00.000+08:00

kung tutuusin, ang dalawang buwan ay halos wala pa kung ating ikukupara sa ibang mga mag nobyo. kung tutuusin, ang dalawang buwan ay wala halos "bearing" dahil marami pang maaaring mangyari sa mga susunod na buwan, taon. ang hirap isipin na sa isang linggo eh ikakasal na ang nakababata kong kapatid. sa ngayon, natatakot ako baka kung anong mangyari dahil wala pang alam sa mundo eh ikakasal na agad, dahil sa mga maling desisyon, mga bagay na hindi maiiwasan dahil sa maling oportunidad na nagkakaroon ang mga tao. oh well....

i love you baby jecyll!

i love you with wax...

i love you jecyll!

2004-12-25T09:42:00.000+08:00

True Love
by Matt Riechmann

I sat at home,
Wishing you were in my arms.
I closed my eyes and pictured 'us'
Together, looking into each other's eyes,
Revealing all that is hidden
And all that is true.

I sat in my room,
Thinking about how beautiful and perfect you are
And I realized how lucky I was to be with you...
Someone who really cares about me,
Someone who actually feels the same,
And I can't help but cry.

I do not cry tears of sadness,
But tears of happiness,
Because I have found the one person who makes me happy
And makes my life complete.

I can't help wanting to have your soft lips on mine.
Because I feel without you... there can be no me.
I need you to help me
Through the day
Through the good
And through the bad.

I need you to be you,
Because that is who I have fallen in love with.
I love you so much
My heart stops when I hold you close...
I love you so much
I can feel it deep down inside my soul.

I love you for who you are
And who you want to be.

And, when I say, "I love you"
I put my heart, my soul, and my life into it.

2004-12-25T09:37:00.000+08:00

love is a decision to make.....
timmy :)

2004-12-25T09:31:00.000+08:00

1st date ever with jecyll
timmy :)

2004-12-25T09:28:00.000+08:00

pac-cute sa seiji, dinner with my family
timmy :)

2004-12-25T09:26:00.000+08:00

blue-ming day: tambay before going out for dinner with my girlfriend's family
timmy :)

2004-12-25T09:25:00.000+08:00

dinner with family :D
timmy :)

happy new life with my jecyll

2004-12-25T09:12:00.000+08:00

christmas day 04
wow, first christmas na officially may partner ako, and okay na okay siya in all aspects. both our families accept and approve of the relationship, so no hassle sa love life. grabe,after 4 years of no communication whatsoever, ang galing lang kasi kami rin pala in the end.

heaven is a decision to make, not a place to find...

love is a decision to make, not a person to find...

i love you jecyll!!!!!

2004-11-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

hayy, iba na talga ang feeling, grabe ang saya saya :D sana parating ganito ka saya ang mundo, hindi magulo

2004-10-29T09:22:00.000+08:00

See ya!
timmy :)

2004-10-29T09:20:00.000+08:00

sans timmy
timmy :)

"phase 3 withdrawal"-sansan

2004-10-29T08:58:00.000+08:00

sobrang tagal na ng phase three pero ngayon lang ako mag susulat tungkol doon. medyo ang weird nga kasi ung mga tao eh siguro tapos na sa euphoria nung event, pero sa akin medyo may konting hang over pa. tila ayaw kong bitawan ang mga nangyari sa nakaraan, pero tulad nga ng natutunan ko sa pilosopiya, hindi pwedeng maiwan sa nakaraan. maaari lamang baliktanawan ito pero hindi tama at hindi angkop na maiwan ang sarili sa nakaraan.

masaya ang phase three. maraming kakaibang nangyaring mahirap kalimutan, malamang kasi hindi na nga kasi maaaring mangyari sa kasalukuyan, dahil sa ibang atmosphere o sa ibang external factors.

para sa nakaraan....

SALAMAT

2004-10-16T00:17:00.000+08:00

salamat sa isang masayang pagtitipun-tipon sa kaaarawan ng ating katotong si jojo. salamat sa wakas eh medyo lang nagkita-kita tayong muli na kahit papaaano ay walang kaharap na libro, kuwaderno at mga iba pang kagamitang pang iskwelahan.
nasisiyahan ako na nakaraos tayo ng isa na namang hadlang sa buhay ng kasarapan. sa bawat isang umaaasa, marami akong natutunan sa buhay ngayong taong ito. kasama na dito ang mga katunayang natanto mula sa aking pagkakaroon ng kapansanang kaunti lang haha
sa bawat pagkaing kuwento ni lagliva, sa mga pahirap ni dy-liacco,sa kalokohan ni aaron, trivia ni gealogo, kuwentong ipis at iba pang insekto ng guro ko sa chinese painting, sa sobrang kabaitan ni dr.ramos, at pag uunawa ni dr.alampay, maaari kong sabihing sulit na ang pagod at hirap na aking naranasan sa unang semestre.
isa na lang,kaya ko to(sa tono ng rivermaya)
salamat
sa muling pagkikita

tang inang buhay to

2004-09-22T10:17:00.000+08:00

grabe ngayon lang ako ulit nag sulat dito. medyo ang tagal tagal kong hindi nag susulat dito tapos medyo hassle pa ngayong times na to. kakakuha ko lang ng midterms ng theo tapos sobrang olats pa ng grade ko, F!!!! medyo kinakailangan ko na atang tigilan ang mag net o di kaya ay mga extra curricular orgs? what you think?
medyo unti unting gumugunaw ang academic world ko, lahat ng mga teachers ko tipong ang laki ng expectations nila sa akin, hindi ko alam kung bakit eh. its not that i dont want that they think of me as someone na talino diba. pero ang hirap kasi parang forever mataas ung expectation nila for me :(
oh well.
tapos thesis pa, tapos philo orals pa. hindi pa tapos yan dahil meron pang presentations ng
history, kasama pa nya ang long test at finals

hanggang sa susunod na free time ko

at last!

2004-08-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

its been fifteen days since my birthday,and so far ang galing, kasi naman, lahat ng gusto kong material gift, nabigay sa akin. una, since i lost my old cell phone, my tita gave me a new one, hehe ang galing! tas my dad naman gave me my own laptop! at first i didnt think they'd give me since the operation was sooo mahal in itself pero lo and behold, meron na akong laptop ngayon! medyo not the mahal type but it looks nice and functions well :) ang saya pati kasi right now my left knee is getting better everyday. it seems like im getting well faster than expected pa nga eh:P medyo kulang na lang eh girl friend, ok na haha pero hindi ko naman minamadali yun kasi kung ung orgs ko nga wala akong time, girlfriend pa kaya? haha

un na muna sa ngayon

its time

2004-07-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

bukas na ang acl reconstruction surgery ko. medyo naiilang akong isipin na bukas na sha, na tipong pag gising ko ng umaga, ayon, bubutasin na ang tuhod ko at lalagyan ng dalawang screws. medyo ang freaky at scary isipin na ilang oras na lang, game time na. hindi naman sa natatakot ako sa surgery, parang bago lang kasi itong ganito sa akin. nakakatakot maulit ung mga pangyayaring ayaw mo na maulit uli kasi either masakit, physically, emotionally o socially. medyo hassle na naman mag lakad ng nakasaklay, lalo na ngayong tag-ulan na. mahirap ding isipin na hindi lang iyon ang poproblemahin mo. shempre bilang estudyante, kasama pa rin ang pag-aaral sa mga kinakailangan mo. ang masakit pa dun, ung mga taong iniisip mong sana man lang may malasakit sayo eh tinatrato ka tipong balewala. nawala na ang pagkikipag kaisa bilang "pamilya". naturingang kasama ng tatlong taon, tas biglang laglagan na. oh well, what kind of friends

ang weird pa nga kasi feeling ko mas friends ko ung mga nasa moro kesa ung buong babble eh. tipong at least sila may goodluck man lang at tipong kaya mo yan speech nung umalis ako kanina. ung babble bench, wala lang, parang they don't see the gravity of the situation, given na luma na sha, hindi man lang sila nag goodluck or what.

sana maging ok na balang araw....

tag-ulan na naman na naman

2004-07-25T11:57:00.000+08:00

eto ako ngayon at gumagawa ng bagay-bagay sa loob ng aming bahay. medyo inis, kasi ndi makapuntang game kasi namatayan,at shempre sa dami ng homework, ewan ko lang kung paano sha matatapos ngayong araw na to

un lang naman

gusto ko ng laptop! :)

2004-07-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

grabe, ang daming kailangang gawin all due either tomorrow or sa week na to. shempre hanggang ngayon di pa ako nag uumpisa haha. oh well. medyo cramming na itong mga pinagagagawa ko, pero shempre tamad ako. medyo excited lang ako sa birthday ko, na sana laptop nga talaga ang ibigay sa akin, para di ako tamarin gumawa ng mga homeworks, etc. haha, shempre wala na akong palusot not to do those stuff since i can bring it anywhere diba? hehe

gusto ko na mag birthday! pero ayaw ko tumanda and gumawa ng mga homework haha

ayaw ko na

2004-07-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

ayaw ko na. medyo nagiging hassle na tlaga ang pag therapy pero kailangan eh. ang hassle kasi hindi ako makagawa ng mga kailangang gawin sa sobrang pagod from therapy. although mababait ung mga tao sa therapy, ung katawan at utak ko naman ung hindi ganoon ka lakas. parang dapat pa atang mag super exercise ng katawan at isip para ma conquer ung mga stress. ayaw ko na mag therapy kung hindi lang sha makatutulong sa pag recover ko, eh di sana ndi na lang diba? pero no, hindi pwede. lintik naman kasi eh, of all people bakit ako pa? well, baka plan na lang talga ni god to.